Life is unfair.

I'm saddened because I've been ripped off by a company. Worse a company where people claim to be believers. It saddens me, deeply. Not just because I've lost more hard earned money but because of who the owner of the company claims to be. 

 Romans 5:3- "we boast in our trouble because we know that trouble produces endurance."

I Thessalonians 3:3- so none of you would be upset by these troubles. You yourselves know that we must face these troubles."

2 Thessalonians 1:6- "God is just: He will pay back trouble to those who trouble you."

And finally John 16:33- "I have told you these things so that in me you will have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world." 

Needed a little reminder. And I'm reminded its justice we long for...

Telling a story...

Where do I begin. Life is funny, I'm learning so many things from the children. The four miracles in my life. The refining process I wasn't ready for. You saw my locket, a little story in itself. First there is the cross. The most important symbol of the ONE you need to know. And then there are the stories, four little blessings that are indescribable by words. Four little miracles, four stories I didn't know I needed and gifts all of His protection. Perhaps that is why this locket or anidentical silver is close to my heart almost every time I leave the house. 

      I was reminded of something today as I was rereading and looking at some vaccine literature. I was reminded that my oldest (red birthstone) has been protected. I had no idea what I was doing ( and often still don't know what I am doing) as a mother, and yet God has given her the sweetest spirit. She is a dream child. She is precious. She was vaccinated. Completely vaccinated when her body was too little to handle it. And she survived. She has had no adverse effects. She is funny smart and brilliant and protected. And then there is the boy (represented by blue even though his birthstone is technically pink we couldn't have that). He also was protected. Completely vaccinated except for rotavirus. You see he got his first rotavirus vaccine at 6 months; and he nearly died. He wound up with intusseception. I will never forget the drug reps coming into the family practice office where I worked. "There is no way the vaccine can cause intusseception." When this happened I worked ER. The things you remember- currant jelly stool = bad.... And he had it... We sat at Childens in Dallas. Four hours in the waiting room. My son became mottled, his blood pressure and oxygen saturation dropping, he hadn't eaten in three days keeping anything down.... There wasn't a room, we waited, I cried... The resident who finally saw him 6 hours later said it couldn't be blood. Guiac it I said.... He did and it was blood. Intusseception seen on X-ray, immediately put in for the new air enema procedure. Me praying as my kid has a tube in his butt at 6 month old that it would work. That he would live. Pleading with God because I let him get the vaccine. And God heard. He lives. He thrives...And then the yellow birthstones. Baby B who decided to turn, nearly made me have a c section, dropped her sugar, NICU with twin A at birth. And twin A who certainly wasn't vaccinated with rotavirus after the fiasco with blue birthstone an had the opposite nearly fatal encounter. Baby A so dehydrated and screaming in pain. In Children's Plano a week again me pleading for her survival. Both twins alive, protected, not completely vaccinated. Every single one of the children miracles. So yes I will wear my locket close to my heart and ponder the miracles, every single miracle.

   Finally, I urge you to look at vaccines. Look at what they are made of. You may find many stand against what you believe. You may find that some could harm your child because of your child's unique genetic code and makeup. Research it. I plan to post articles. I plan to write a blog with information to help an s hopefully to educate parents along the way. Guess what? The Lord has grace for us. And I don't always have the answer, but he can direct my paths straight and has given me these four miracles to make a difference for. 

You tell stories with....I tell stories with jewelery.

Then and Now Part I

Our country is in crisis. Christians and Non-Christians alike are not seeing what is coming. Daniel 7 talks about continued decline, of Government, decline of people, nations as he visualizes the beasts coming out of the sea (which are a sign of the government that rise and fall).

 

Jeremiah and Isaiah confronted people of God that refused to see their vile and corrupt ways; including child sacrifice, as we do today with abortion. God gave His people opportunity to repent through their unpopular message of judgment but I believe America is asleep. Even in the Christian Church, we are tiptoeing through the tulips. People are not even listening to the news; and those that listen, are not putting it in the context of the Bible and not comparing it to history. Not looking toward the future and Christ's return as we are called to do.

 

I Thessalonians 5:1-11 "About the times and the seasons: brothers, you do not need anything to be written to you. For you yourselves know very well that the Day of the Lord will come just alike a thief in the night. When they say, "Peace and Security," then sudden destruction comes on them, like labor pains on a pregnant woman, and they will not escape. But you, brothers, are not in the dark, so that this day would not overtake you like a thief. For you are all sons of light and sons of the day. We're not of the night or of darkness. So then, we must not sleep, like the rest, but we stay awake and be sober. For those who sleep, sleep at night, and those who get drunk or drunk at night

 

But since we are of the day, we must be sober and put on the armor of faith and love on our chests and put on a helmet of the hope of salvation. For God did not appoint us to wrath, but to obtain salvation through our Lord Jesus Christ, who died for us, so that whether we are awake or asleep, we will live together with Him. Therefore encourage one another and build each other up as you are already doing."

 
 

Jeremiah tells people to wake up back in the time of Judah and I believe today we in the church need to wake up. We need to be aware that things are not going to get better and we are reaping consequences of the choices we have made. I have been comparing history, and I remember as a child I was told, "We fail when history repeats itself, the purpose of history is to learn from our mistakes." We have so much history in the Old Testament of a people that abandoned God, worshiped idols and lived apart from Him. We see God's wrath and judgment, consequences. We look in the History books and see the time of Hitler. Of persecution that the Jews, Christians and those that opposed Hitler. The time is coming... and it's only going to get worse from here. We need to be praying for our Nation. We need to be praying about our country, fighting the battles of abortion, prayer in school etc to get Christ back in our Nation; and praying for our leader who doesn't support Israel.

I made a historical table regarding history in the time of Hitler, comparing his leadership to leadership in our country today. You will see headlines, and processes. Be aware if you are a Christian you are a threat, a right wing extremist to this country. It's time to wake up!

Near World WAR II	News today
Treaty and allies of Mussolini, Hitler and Franco of Spain	Treaty, unspoken ally, Russia selling Iran nuclear information
Overall appeasement of nations including U.S., Brittan and Spain of Hitler and Mussolini	Overall appeasement of nations to the U.S. by Obama in Iran and Venezuela. "American's arrogant" to Europeans
Ultimatum given to Germany and Italy by Britain and France and U.N. ignored and met with further insurgent attacks and no one does anything as they continue invading: Rhineland near France and later Austria. Also invading other countries around the world. Aiding Fascist Franco in Spanish Civil war.	-Iran ultimatum given to stop nuclear program- U.s. does nothing, and then, it's ok for them to continue enrichment as we have "peace" talks -N. Koreans told not to fire a rocket "into space", they fire the rocket. Obama speaks against it, U.N. says that was bad but no punishment
Brittan's and French "went on with daily life" it's far away doesn't impact me	N. Koreans starving.   War and ravage, rape, killing of children in Africa U.S. is doing nothing
Piracy of foreign ships in the Mediterranean establish Front and British Antisubmarine patrols at Nyon. 80 Anglo-French destroyers patrolling Mediterranean had profound impact on Europe	Indian Ocean and Gulf of Aden Piracy occurring in the waters near Africa. "Best way to confront piracy off Somalia is create a national naval force financed by international aide in impoverished East African Nation"
Rome swears to protect Austria's sovereignty. Vienna is invaded by Germany, Rome, Brittan, France, U.S, does nothing	U.S. swears to protect Israel's sovereignty. On the Gaza strip Hamas consistently throwing bombs into Israel, Israel forced to give up West Bank and Gaza, the U.S. does nothing.   President Mahmoud Ahmadinezad calls repeatedly for Israel's destruction, denies the holocaust (but states he will finish what Hitler began) and insists Iran will not give up uranium enrichment despite U.N. security council demands to stop. States Israel is "The most cruel and repressive racist regime." And the U.S. does nothing.
Capturing of German citizens including Jews, persecution of Christians, decreased rights, all schools and youth part of the Nazi regime.	Obama working to pass legislation that children be involved in "nationalized" educational policy.
Antigovernment citizens of Germany: -Jews and Christians -Those dating or married to anyone of Jewish decent -Any Jewish lineage -Business owners that do not wish their business to be run by government. -Those that do not hang up Swastika in their business -Those in churches that preached sermons stating what Nazis were doing was wrong.	Antigovernment citizens according to Department of Homeland Security… -"may include groups and individuals dedicated to a single such as abortion or immigration." - "Right wing extremist may be gaining new recruits by playing on fears about several emergent issues." - "exploitation of social issues such as abortion, interracial crimes, or same-sex marriages" - "Antigovernment conspiracy theories and "end times" prophecies could motivate extremist individuals and groups to stockpile food, ammunition, and weapons. These teachings have also been linked with radicalization of domestic extremist individuals and groups in the past such as violent Christian Identity organizations and extremist members of the militia movement." -If President Obama succeeds with his priority of passing the Hate Crimes law, H.R. 1913 - the Local Law Enforcement Hate Crimes Prevention Act, it could lead to the criminalization of the Biblical view of homosexuality in sermons and elsewhere. An offended homosexual could accuse a pastor; Sunday School teacher of broadcaster of causing emotional injury simply by expressing the Biblical view that homosexuality is sinful.

 

This is a draft, the table is correct but more will be added as the headlines continue to change I will continue to add to this table and my blogs. Hence the part I.

 

Changes in a Year

I used to think life was about me.... I was wrong... This past year, since my last post has been hard, been about refinement, been about change and thus my blog is changing. No longer will I post just about me. Its crucial that people see the God of the Isrealites, that they see who Jesus is and therefore this journal is going to change. Stories of life may be displayed but I pray this is for the Glory of the Lord and that He uses this to change your life because walking with Him is the greatest thing.

2 Timothy 1:7 says, " For God has not given us a spirit of fearfulness but one of power, love, and sound judgement."

Life is hard, our economy is failing. Our hearts have turned against the Lord in America. It would be a time for fear if we didn't know who God is. I couldn't state better than Bodie and Brock Thoene when they say, "Dear Ones, don’t be afraid. No matter what happens, DO NOT FEAR! We KNOW the END of every story…those who know and follow the Lord WILL BE WITH HIM in Heaven! Christ has died for our sins. Christ IS RISEN! Christ IS COMING AGAIN! This is OUR HOPE! THIS IS OUR FAITH! ." (please see thier blog that has so much historical fact, and is so accurate to who Jesus is: http://www.thoenebooks.com/blog.asp?post=0&per=Apr2009&id=538).

History is repeating itself over and over and our nation does not remember that those who turn there backs on the Lord and on His people will not continue to have prosperity. See Genesis 12:1-6; reread the Isrealites wandering in the wilderness in Numbers and Deuteronomy and see Deuteronomy 32 the song of Moses as He was dying that reminds us of how the Isrealites turned from thier God.

It is time for us to pray, to be on our faces before God and to listen to what He is telling us. Pray for those who do not know Christ. This has been a burden on my heart the past few days. I love many who do not know Jesus, and my life should reflect Him. Love them, for we do not know the day or the hour...

A New Year Begins

This is my first time to blog, and part of my new years resolutions to begin writing down the trials and joys of everyday in my bizarre world.

I had a baby in October of 2007, and it is obvious I haven't had time to blog at all. He is my 2nd noncompliant child. I had no idea that having children would be so difficult. Two children is a greater shock to my system than it was to go from no children to one and to say the least, I haven't returned to work from maternity leave.

I have to recap a little bit on 2007 and the things I have learned since October.

1. It takes me 45 minutes to even think about going anywhere.

2. If your 1st child is noncompliant there is an equally and more probable chance that your 2nd child will be noncompliant.

3. Time is not yours with two children and a husband.

4. If you didn't loose baby weight from the 1st pregnancy it is impossible to gain less weight with the second pregnancy or loose the weight faster.

5. After birth of the second child there are contractions a good six weeks after delivery.

6. Money disappears with 2

7. Going back to work early is hard, and each day children change.

8. I never knew exhaustion.

9. I am a dairy cow (by the way if anyone knows of a good way to sell breast milk I could use the income!)

10. My husband is the 3rd child, and all 3 children have needs greater than my own.